Malamku

Starry Starry night by DaraDPhotography  

Malam, pelindungku,
Hening dan temaramnya 
tak membakar semangatku
tak memburu nafasku
Dia setia memelukku 
seperti rahim seorang ibu

Di situ semua lelah terbasuh
Kekusutan benak terurai
Satu demi satu
lembut dan menenangkan

Malam, bagiku tak lagi suram
Gulitanya menyejukkan
Membasuh jiwa raga yang lunglai terpapar keramaian
yang terdera ketergesaan setiap fajar menjelang

Malamku sangatlah pengasih
Membiarkanku menjadi diriku seada-adanya
Melucutiku dari topeng dan peran
serta kabut emosi yang sepanjang hari melekat kencang pada diri ini

Aku tak pernah menyangka ada kelembutan semegah ini
Tak pernah kusangka gulita dan heningnya bisa begitu menyembuhkan

Rasanya baru kemarin aku berbangga hati memuja mentari.

Kini di setiap senja kubisikkan
"Bawalah aku pulang
Aku milikmu, wahai kelam"

Just Be

The more I see you
The more I see in you
The more I feel you

Those affectionate touches
and kisses
They relax us
They open us
They soften us
They heal us

The way you let me touch you
The way your fingers 
trace my skin, 
How come
There's so much affection
in such sensual gestures
How come
There's overflowing compassion
in such burning desire
How come
every moment feels like an invitation
to enjoy
to savor
to come home to
every inch of your being
every breath you breathe
the very you

And tenderness
is when you wrapped me around in your arms
when you hold me close
to your chest
to feel the warmth 
of your body
to merge with your energy
to be savored
completely

Resting there
and just be
No longer feeling thirsty
It's all quenched
No longer need to seek
I'm now found
No more endless quest
I'm now home

Perih Ini Lagi

Perih ini lagi

Yang tak bernama

Yang tak pernah punya etika

Muncul di waktu-waktu semestinya manusia bahagia

Ketika pagi merekah

saat terkasih menyapa

Ketika semburat senja pamerkan tariannya

Atau saat malam menghias diri dengan taburan bintang

Perih ini lagi

Tak jelas darimana asalnya

Memotong separuh semua ceriaku

Tawaku tinggal setengah

Senyumku berhenti di tengah

Merantai nafas yang ingin lepas

Membuat banyak kata terhenti di dada

Perih ini lagi

Beritahu aku siapa kamu

Dan darimana asalmu

Bawa aku kemanapun kau mau

Ceritakan kisahmu

Aku di sini

Akan tetap di sini

Sampai aku mengenalmu

Sampai tak lagi kau terasa

Perih bagiku

In Go(o)d Hands

In haste I saw her

welcoming my weary smile

and teary eyes

with a casual embrace

and ensuring gaze

Opening a sacred space

for us two

amid the trance

among the crowds

I shivered

she answered calmly

to my every worries

and smile carefreely

letting me be

in the freedom to feel

anxious

broken

fragile

She took my hand

and climbed up the hill

a beautiful spot

chairs at the top

then there we sat

looking down to the ocean

there she said

Everything is in good hands

  

I raised my head

looking at her so close for the first time

I sighed

A sweet relief

recognizing her at last

As me

Buih Pikiran #1

Jangankan menyapamu

Memikirkanmu saja tak lagi ku mampu

kuharap rindu ini lamat-lamat sirna

Tak lagi beratkan kalbuku

———-

Rasa ini masih saja menghimpit

Entah siapa dan apa lagi kali ini

Yang akan kupersalahkan

———-

Waktu merangkak lambat

Sabar terus kurentang

Duduk diam bukan hal mudah

Ketika pikiran dan kenangan

Tiada ampun

Mengeroyok nurani

———-

Terlalu banyak ragu

Merantai sayapku

Aku belum siap

Aku benci diburu-buru

———-

Masih ada hari esok

Jika hari ini terlewatkan

Dan hampa itu menganga

Ingatlah terus

Tak ada yang sia-sia

Tak ada yang perlu dikejar

Tak ada kata terlambat

 ———-

Ternyata rasa itu bukan cinta

Ternyata yang kurasa adalah favoritisme

kau adalah eskapisme

Saat kebosanan hampakan waktuku

Saat dunia penatkan benakku

Saat hormon bulanan merongrong emosiku

Saat segalanya menjadi terlalu

Kau katarsis favoritku

Untuk Mama

Mama,

andai takdir bisa diubah

aku ingin jadi adikmu saja

biar tumpah semua keluh kesahmu

ke kupingku.

biar kuusap air mata itu

dengan tanganku

biar tak repot kau sembunyikan lukamu

dariku

Biar kesempurnaan yang terus kau upayakan

tetap milikNya

Mama,

aku ingin jadi adikmu saja

biar kita bisa tertawa dan menangis

bersama-sama

Jakarta 10 November 2012

*31 tahun yang lalu aku resmi jadi anaknya :D

Connected

I hear your laughter

Warm and light like summer

And you know yes you always know

It’s your kiss that i miss

soft and gentle like the morning breeze

Oh boy stay connected

don’t let me lost and get abducted

let the past remains past

let’s keep it sweet and romantic

I hear your cry

What’s with the heavy sigh

And you know yes you always know

It’s your eyes that speak no lies

About the love that never dies

Oh girl stay connected

don’t wanna get lost and feel haunted

let the past remains past

let’s keep it sweet and romantic

The past remains the past

We can always keep it sweet and romantic

Jakarta 30 Okt. 12

Love All

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Take my hand

Close your eyes

Feel each step with your heart

Slowly 

We walk

Further

Deeper

To the part

That is darker

We walk

And walk

We see nothing

We hear nothing

But I got your hands

And u got mine

And we keep walking

Guided only

With d beat within

Trust only

Each other's loving

Take my hand

Close your eyes

Feel each fear

Embrace every tears

Welcome every agony

For they are all sacred 

Just like me

Just like u

Walk further

Greet everything

Love all

Until there's no more shadow

Left unknown

Left unloved

Until d dark becomes light

And d light merges with d dark

Walk further

A lil' more

Until u see only yourself

And I see only mine

Naked

Sacred

Undefined

Then What's Real?

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Far from here
at the core of my being
I sit and watch
that clarity you define
as the part of your being

I’m untouched
in the undefined silence
I see you
Yet you don’t see me

Seasons change
And spring has far gone
Yet your fragrance lingers on
telling me you don’t die
not as easy as you thought

Feelings remain the same
Memories remain untamed
All happened happened
Loss and gain are mere illusion

Then what’s real, you ask
I sit here untouched
in the undefined silence
Seeing you in me
We are real, answer I

In our own mind
In our own heart

Perhaps you are blind
perhaps I am mute
but this whole mind game won’t last

Soon we will realize
the one thing that remains
is you and I
Here and Now

Sacred

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Go ahead, dear

Unlock your Pandora's box

It’s about time

To release everything

To unleash all anguish

Fear not what’s inside

For it’s all yours

And just like you

It’s all sacred

Go on, my love

It’s alright

revoke all those painful memories

Call all the ghosts from the past

Bring up all the shame and guilt

Claim all the darkest deeds

let them all be heard

let them all be seen

let them all be acknowledged

with love, darling

shine on

see them with your heart

feel them with your heart

rest your mind

mute  your logic

let your ever glowing light within

shine through every one of them

then breathe

gently set them free

with your most grateful thanks

it’s alright, sweetheart

all is well

as always

Seribu Kali

Lalu untuk keseribu kalinya

Dia sebutkan namanya

Umurnya

Pekerjaannya

Status pernikahannya

Dan untuk keseribu kalinya

Dia rangkum dan ceritakan

Riwayat singkat hidupnya

Dua tahun kebelakang

Ini apa?
untuk apa ini?
tidak, dia tidak sedang menjawab wawancara kerja

Dia sedang jawabi pertanyaan

Seorang pria

Yang keseribu

Yang coba dapatkan hatinya

Jakarta, 9 januari 2012, ketika mencari belahan jiwa sudah seperti mencari kerja

Who She Is

Love,
You see this lil child
You let her laugh
and You let her cry
You let her fly
And also fall to the ground
And all her scars
You let all of them
Healed by time
And her tears
Dried by your breeze

Love,
This lil child misses her home
She knows You are watching her
She knows You feel her
All the time
In her every breath
In her every heartbeat

Love,
This lil child remembers You
She remembers how You feel
She remembers how You smell
She knows with her every being
how You are
Just like You, who knows who she really is
who always knows her very well

Love,
There's only one thing
She remembers not
That just like others
And just like You
She too is Love

Cheerio, Lovely!

That patterns in the clouds tell me

It's no longer use for you to wait

All alone by the sea

When the tide will be friendly

 

It's not how it works, Cherrie

So stop waiting and just start sailing

The tide will never be your kind of friendly

But it will make your boat even more sturdy

 

The summer night's breeze whispers to me

It's time, Dearie

Fear not the darkness

Befriend the unknown

Embrace the depth 

For only in d dark will you find your stars

For only with the unknown will your wings expand

and for only in the depth will you realize that you are unbound

 

Cheerio, Lovely!

Dive in deeper

Soar up higher

Dance away your dance

Sing aloud your song

Worry not 

you got the whole universe by your side  

Jakarta, 29.10.2011

Again

It’s you again

I thought I’ve locked you up

I thought I’ve buried you deep down

It seems you got bored easily these days

That you keep popping up and creating so much

The same old stuff again

I thought you’ve told me that people change

I thought you’ve chosen to cold heartedly change

Yet it seems you kinda miss your oldies

That you start wishing you had a time machine

That kind of feelings again

The one that used to create a lovely chaos within

I thought I’ve mastered my own being

I thought I’ve built these defenses to the ceiling

Yet your single glimpse turns out to be so intimidating

That I find myself always surrendering

It’s us again

Playing around defying time and space

Fooling around denying fact and fate

Over a decade like lovers in arcade

It’s you and I detouring the maze

Dearest

Dearest,

Tahukah kau kuselalu mengamatimu

Menikmati bayangmu

Dari tempat terjauh

Di sudut terpojok dan relung terdalam

Antara dua dunia

Tempat mimpi kita bertemu

Dearest,

Tahukah kau kuselalu merindu

Dengan hasrat yang tak sedikitpun pernah padam

Meski satu dekade telah berlalu

Meski jarak terus terentang tanpa hiraukan piluku

Dearest,

Tahukah kau hatiku bertalu

Hanya dengan kau tatapkan wajahmu

Atau bisikkan namaku

Atau sebaris kata di layar maya

Dearest,

Kutakkan bisa hentikan perputaran ini

Seperti mentari yang rindukan rembulan

Yang takkan pernah bersanding di satu dunia

Kutau kaupun mecumbu bayangku

Jakarta, 1 Oktober 2011

Timeless Space

I can feel you so close

I can sense you around

In this timeless space

In a place with no name

Letting me

breathe you

letting you

possess me 

I can feel your embrace

Savoring every inch of my being

Merging into yours

So sweet and delicate

Letting me

Conquer you

Letting you

Rule me

I can feel you so close

I can sense you around

In this timeless space

In a place with no name

071110

Live by Default

i’m an open book

you can always tell what i feel

you can always feel what i think


i’m a naked truth

you can be dragged way so far from your nestling place

you can see me as the most brutal murderer

of your fairy tales


i’m no angel

you can choose to drown with my emotional flux

or to dance with its cycle


i’m none of them

who define you by your life attributes

who see you as the crowds want to see you

who love you by nourishing your ignorance

who befriend you with conditions


i’m one

just like you

but i choose

not to live by default

 

13feb2010